Sometimes... only sometimes

Sometimes... only sometimes

Dark in the night. I look out of my window into the night. Trying to locate the fireflies in the bushes. The dawn is just an hour away and has already started to color the sky blue. I have been sitting continuously for more than 2 hours trying to make some sense out of Kotler/Keller... or is it Robbins...? Well whats the difference.

I should sleep now. So that I can wake up for the class at 8:30. But lets wait. Lets close the book and just sit. Maybe lets play some music. Lets just sit listening to the music. Why does it have to feel like wasting time. Well why is wasting time so unsettling. Lets waste time. Just doing nothing. Thinking of no past, wondering about no future. Lets just sit for a while... before it disappears.

Lets forget the past and delay the future...

The class just got over. It takes 10 minutes to walk from Acad block to NH. So what lecture was it? Well it was FinAcc by AshBan. What a teacher he is. By far the best I have seen. But lets not think about it... maybe for these 10 mins. Lets not talk to anyone. Lets just sing a song. Lets not think of any past or future. Or maybe lets just think of past. Or maybe lets just sing a song on the way back. Lets delay these 10 mins. Cause as soon as I reach hostel, one thing or the other will start again. Maybe I will get back to think about some presentation, some submission, some quiz. But for now, lets forget everything. Lets own these 10 mins. Lets delay them. Absorbing every little second it constitutes.

Ok so I am on a call with my sister. We have been on a long conversation and its dark around at the end of the road outside NH. I see a firefly on the road. I just place my hand around it and it climbs up on my palm. I look at it in awe and completely forget that I am on a call. I am on an auto-answering mode on the call and constantly looking at the glowing fly in my palm admiring it for the light it carries. Atleaset it illuminates itself. 2 minutes have passed and it just flew away. And now I realize that I have been on this call.

Sometimes it feels good to just lose track of things, even for a very brief period of time. And yes there always is one thing or the other to do around these times. Classes, presentations, exams, group meetings, cases, quizzes, CV, placement and lots more.

lets waste time
chasing cars...

if i lay here...
if i just lay here...
....
and just forget the world.(?)

i indeed am at a loss of words...