I wish I were mad

I wish I were mad

I wish i were mad.

And I would have done all such thing which i sometimes long to do.

flying in the air whenever i wish to without actually doing it...
closing my eyes whenever driving bike above 80 kmph...
jumping off a train in the middle of a place as dark as possible... preferably with a full moon...
jumping off aeroplane above a city after it is dark...
crying helplessly with noone around...
laughing so much as to cause pain in my stomach... for no reasons...
going into coma... maybe by talking extra insulin...
watching the same favourite movie over and over...
failing in the subjects i hate... by getting zero or negative marks...
walking out of the most hateful teacher's class staring into his/her eyes...
throwing the TV out of my house...
playing my fav songs at such a loud volume so as to blow off all neighbourhood windows...

and above all... jumping off the highest building in the city... not to die... but to see it coming... well yes at the cost of life but that would have been a small price to pay if i were mad...

these might seem very weird... don't worry i am not going to do anything out of these... this was more of a way to vent out something...

and i think a bit of it has been vented out :)

a bad post... more for the writer than the reader...

but i m not going to delete this one the way i have deleted a lot others...