Late 20 Something

Late 20 Something

Its interesting how conversations between two friends change over a period of time... Especially if you have been in constant touch with him/her. From lab assignments or Billiards in 2000-04 to pubs, parties and .NET and Java in 2004-08 to matrimonial sites in 2010.

Few days back a friend from school days was here in Gurgaon and we went into all kinds of conversations. When you meet an old friend you expect him or her to look the same. Same as some 6-8 years back... Bright, juvenile and hopeful about each and everything in life. And when I met her I thought yes she's still pretty and we are not that old to spot age on our faces. But there was a shade of time in the expressions she carried. And then I looked into the mirror to find out that its the same with me too. Of course I am also losing my hairline also. But this expression is what made me think how old we have grown since that time. We can't bear teenager talk now, at least I can't.

And I realized, in late 20s our age makes us so cynical that its not difficult to spot it in our faces. And we think we know everything about life... We think we have been through so many rough patches in our life that the hope and faith in everything has been killed to death. It feels like shunning a life we got sick and tired of and not even waiting for the next one. We smile, we laugh, we cry we booze, we party and what not but its never the same as it was when we first started it, when we used to put our heart, mind and soul in whatever we did. Now we have seen how hollow a lot of those dreams were. How baseless a lot of those thoughts were.

Some of us are still struggling with a lot of those questions and dilemmas. Maybe for one last time before falling idle or maybe to prolong the dream and paint the reality the way they want to. Well good luck to all you folks.

But for others, life has changed. The emotions for our problems, our stories of life, our love stories, our career which we once used to regard as more fresh than ever, more beautiful than any other are mere repetitions created by our mind in a pattern that was butchered to death ages back. Our secrets which we think are very precious and should be kept deep in our consciousness are no more than fantasies created by our mind to keep us busy. In reality, it can change nothing.

Why I wrote it all... Well for one reason that I had no stories to write and an hour to waste. Besides it was raining outside so I couldn't even go out. But main reason is that I also wanted to say that I am going to Switzerland... yay!!!