A different day of my life

A different day of my life

Its 4 am in the morning... No I am not of the kinds who wake up at 4 am. Just that I haven't slept yet. I plan to sleep at 5 or something so to pass time I thought to write something.

Today was strange... Quite different from other days. I woke up frowning in the morning. I dreamt of an Air crash. No I wasn't inside... i was just an eyewitness. This is what dream dictionary says about it.

To dream that a plane crashes, signifies that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself and are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.
[http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/c4.htm]

Interesting part is that it was a Jet Airways plane, and Jet is my favourite airline.So that means I am feeling insecure about my most desired goal...

Well... goals... I don't know which one is this dream about. And frankly speaking I don't care.

Today the morning was so bright and cold... The whole morning I was feeling sleepy and tired, probably because after a long time it was one full day to be spent at home. Finally I slept in the afternoon. I hate sleeping in the afternoons, so I always need a strong reason to convince myself for a sleep. Don't know what it was for today. I just declared that I m not having lunch and I slept.

And then in the evening Ady asked for a movie. And the movie was some Jaaneman or something. I had pledged that I won't watch the movie the day I saw its first trailor. Anyways we went for the movie and first hour was unbearable. if i were alone, I would have skipped the movie and spent rest of the time in some open air cafe. But after the first hour movie grew normal and it didn't force me to concentrate on it. I just kept my eyes on the screen and mind somewhere else. This was the worst movie I have ever seen in cinema hall and strangely, I wasn't pissed off at all... When it ended I just located the Exit and walked out. And after coming home at 2 am i declared that i can't sleep now... would stay awake for atleast 3 more hours.

This day was strange. I was so calm today.... so numb... yes thats the right word... i was feeling very numb.

And then Ady suggested me to visit home. Perhaps he's right... I should plan a home trip.